Back to the Basics.

Since my email is logged onto a different blogger account, I think I'm sticking to it. It's been a nice run, here on this blog..and I shall return, but it'll probably be occasionally. Goodbye blog #1.

Much Love Always,
Mariann

My other blog: http://murrrrrannnnn.blogspot.com/

New Year.

Yes! I have officially turned 17, and it feels AWESOME. I'm so Thankful to be Blessed with another year to inhale all the happenings Life has to offer me and what God has yet to show me. With everything happening, I'm glad I can keep moving forward to a greatly-expected year.

I had only allowed myself to smile on my Birthday and that daily ritual is not a bad thing ;)

Annnnnd that is all :)

<3 Always,
Mariann

Promise me,

that we'll be friends for a Lifetime.

<3
Mariann

Excuse me if this is out of context ... :)

There's nothing more sexy than...
ADAM LEVINE.

Hahaha. Seriously. In reality, there's nothing quite more sexy than a guy who can:
-Go to Mass with me each Sunday and on the Holy/Obligation days
-Pray the Rosary with me
-Get along with my Family
-Make plans for a date
-Cook
-Use cute feminine words
-Be comfortable in his skin
-Be outgoing yet intelligent
-Cuddle with me on a rainy day, watching TV and sipping a hot drink
-Sing to me, whether he's on key or not
-Play an instrument
-Wear anything, and still rock it
-Find interest in what I like
-Try new things with me
-Catch me off guard on my bad days and make me smile
-Do the simple things to make me smile
-Make me feel beautiful in my own flaws
-Walk the walk, not just talk the talk
-Drive the speed limit and not speed-race
-Text me randomly, and make me smile regardless what he says
-Text me Good Morning
-Act the same whether it be only us or with friends
-Share the same morals as me
-Bring me skydiving
-Take risks with me
-Love me for me
-Be vulnerable
-Joke around
-Keep his lips soft
-Admit he's a Momma's boy
-Admit that he's wrong when he really is
-Put up with me when I'm mad
-Play golf with my Dad (Lol)
-Change my views on certain ideas
-Be my Best friend, Mentor and my significant other
-Take care of kids
-Smell good at anytime of the day
-Have a heart-to-heart conversation
-Trust Me
-Make me feel Loved, Protected and Safe
-Believe in whatever I do
-Impress my parents :)


Gemini's like to make lists...so here it is :)

This is not all, sooo maybe I'll add on...another day.

Love.Smile.Give Thanks.
Mariann

Change.

Sometimes you can't help the feeling of disbelief. Point blank.

I went into camp with a slightly negative view, but came out of it with more certainty. It's the feeling of something so small that can ruin your experiences, and that happened to affect me.

The attitude that I try to reflect upon others is positivity. I come off with a positive sense and a really kind characteristic. But that won't cut it for certain situations. When you have a high-standing position, you're supposed to take charge...that's just an automatic trait to portray. I felt like the past year, I have been such a push-over. It bothers me that when I see that word it reminds me of myself. Not to say that being a push-over is a bad thing, but it also is not necessarily a good thing, either. When I try to stand my ground, it is not firm, therefore I felt that I did not get the respect that I deserved. Honestly, it kind of hurts my heart to be treated this way, but I can't blame the situation.

This year, I want change. Hopefully not completely as a person, rather, a change in my leadership. A change that will help me stand my ground but will not put me out of line or character. I am not willing to completely change myself for respect. I want to earn the respect, give the respect and also respect myself and what I believe in. I pray to overcome the obstacles I know I will face this year. It won't be easy, but knowing that I can say what I need to say and keep my confidence...will be a goal that I've accomplished. I guess until then...I'll have to play it by ear. But, it starts now. I'm ready for whatever there is to come because..what does not kill me, can only make me stronger. And, whether I fail or succeed, The Lord is by my side with the next piece that's suppose to fit my puzzle.

Sincerely Always,
Mariann

Random.

I just want to say...Lady Gaga's song, "Edge of Glory", makes me move like I wanna, like I wanna. Lol. Basically.

This blog probably won't piece together very smoothly, but I guess we'll change this up a bit, yes?

Although I meant to pack yesterday for my upcoming 3-day trip...I have yet to do so! I mean...it is only three days- how hard is it to pack a few outfits and necessities? I'm bound to forget something..knock on wood. My thoughts about this trip concluded to uncertainty, but at the end of the day, I throw all my negative thoughts away, and just bound to have fun. I really hope I don't feel otherwise!

I actually got a random phone call today, and it made me smile. Although it only lasted for 12 minutes, the fact that Father R. made time to return my phone call, meant a lot. I called him the night before and asked him to include a prayer throughout the months..but I didn't think he'd call back. Anyway, he will be off to the PI at around the same time my Birthday falls on. It's an annual thing to hang out with him and my Aunties and Uncles...but that's okay that it may not happen this year. When he said "I'm happy to be going home", that did it for me. He works so hard and diligently, his annual trips are well-deserved. He's a Best Friend for life, and I'm excited for whatever's next to come after he's back. I'm sure we're going fishing with Uncle Leo..I'm excited!

I cannot believe it's been about two weeks since the BEAUTIFUL wedding! I'm so happy for Sharisse and Jing that they both have found happiness in each other. Love stories are the best, and the best part of that is that I got to see it bloom. Aww :)

Oh last but not least. The sweetest of the sweets. The feeling you get around whatever/whomever that keeps you happy. I've encountered that feeling and it feels good. For the most part, being around my cousins keep me sane. I can talk to them about anything and they give me the best advice. I'm so thankful. Now it's my turn to put everything into play..whether I decide to speak about how I feel or not. But I guess that's for another personal blog..or not. But anyway...I have to pack for camp now :P Cleaning didn't happen today, so I guess I have something to do on Friday when I get back.

Please pray for a safe trip and keep me in your thoughts. Thanks :)

Good night!

<3,
Mariann

Home Stretch.

Everything, right now, seems at peace. Momma made it home just in time for Mother's Day,and having her here is comforting. Everything else in the world that brings unhappiness, has flown away for a little. But now it is back.

School is ending in two weeks, and the countdown begins. I feel like there are so many things I have to worry about, trying to fit in extra classes during the summer and taking care of my Senior year. Shooting for an easy year, I know it'll be nothing but adventures and craziness. I'm on that mental game, though. I try to stay more focused than ever and shoot down Finals. Honestly, I'm mentally drained from my AP testing and all I'm thinking about is Summer. I'm a little discouraged at the moment, but my Hopes stay higher than the skies. Trying to overcome this won't be easy, but I'm gonna do it!


Somehow I just stay distracted. This is not a bad thing, but I often catch myself off-guard thinking about other things. Sometimes when you prioritize, one of your priorities is raging to the top when it shouldn't be. I feel that God is giving me a sign, telling me to take action. Like a turtle, I stay hiding inside my shell. I'm scared to discover what this is all supposed to be about, but maybe He brings this to me at a good point in my Life and for a specific reason. Until then, He will know all my thoughts as I smile about it throughout the day, and pray about it in the night. I hope I can build up this kind of courage to speak my mind and come out of the shell. But for now...I have to keep these studies first and who knows what Summer will bring. I guess we will just take it day by day :)

Warmly,

Mariann