You're My Favorite!

Funny thing just happened that brings me back to a scenario I ran across before.

-This happened through text-

Dad: B GOOD WN I M NOT HOME LOVE U AND MISS U

Me: Insurance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dad: Oh yes Wlll do

Me: SOON!!!! Have fun. Love you. Bye!

Dad: Tx you my favorite baby

This is brought me back to a story that I heard.

There was a Mother who cared for three kids. As they were occupied on the front lawn enjoying nature, the Mother asked for her oldest child. They were both faced to face in an empty room, and she said "Honey, out of your other siblings, you are my favorite". She then sent out her oldest back to the lawn and got her middle child. To that child, she said the same thing and once more to the younger child. This gave her kids a boost of confidence, evidently showing how much Momma cared for them- only want to see her kids achieving.

Just thought I'd share.

-Murrann.

The Feeling.

Father dearest is going to Oregon for a week to visit. I'm having mixed feelings about this, whether I'll miss him or am relieved that he will be gone. To my distraction, I was hoping he'd get me insurance for driving before he left, but....nada. So I await another week without insurance. Summer is summer and whatever happens, happens- I guess. Well..either way, insurance or no insurance, Dada or no Dada, Momma and I will have fun...it's just sometimes driving alone is more fun :P

-Murray

Realizing.

Before I realized that I wanted to blog again, I re-read what I had to say, in the past months. I could truly say that I've grown into someone who I wanted to be. From where I started to whom I've become, I'd always look for the good in every bad. So rooted in my Faith, I think it comes natural. Is it really human to do so? Not really. But I'm not saying that I'm superhuman. Through and through, as humans, we sometimes pursue in "the dream" and not "the reality". After attending this camp, I've realize you set yourself up for disaster in order to succeed. For instance, you shoot for what you could do, instead of what you can do. At first, I was puzzled- thinking: "Why waste your time aiming for something mediocre when you can get down to the point and aim for something achievable?" Though it is easier to see ourselves overcome rather than relinquish, we are afraid of taking the risk. In almost any concept, such as relationships, friendships, family or jobs... it all works out the same. Never would we settle for less, but never would we set up for more. Ah-it's a thought that has now gotten me overwhelmed. Then again, I think it holds true. Think about it. Realize.

Hallelujah.

These past few weeks have really opened my eyes...to the things that were unseen. I found out so many things I needed to know, I've discovered a new part of me, and I've numerously thanked God. During the three day weekend, I was really able to reflect on things that I never really thought about or things that I or others simply take for granted. Today, there was a homeless man trying to get some spare change. I didn't have any on me, but I wondered if I had the all the cents or dollar bills, would I have handed it to him? Is this God's way of telling me I'm selfish? Though, I remember on Tuesday, Nobell talked about egoists and that it's proven wrong that we're selfish. It gets to me that maybe I need to give more; not my time necessarily...but just to give more. Maybe that's what I've been lacking. Through wondrous jobs God has given me, being a part of the St.Paul's youth group ministry is honestly a TRUE BLESSING. And to this, I say Hallelujah. Forever will I want to do God's will, as a creation set upon this Earth...to change herself for the better or maybe possibly even change the world. Think about it: If we're willing to accept God's call in whatever and whenever...we can honestly CHANGE THE WORLD.

Amen!

Happy Easter! Rejoice!

Take care Grandpa.

Dear Grandpa,
I miss you terribly, even though it's only been a few days and hours. Today was your calling day, today was when God called you to be with him. I'm thankful that all your pain has gone, and that you're reuniting with Grandma, at this moment. I never imagined it would happen at this time and day, but I understand that you're 95 and you were getting weak. I love you and miss you so much. It has been kind of hard for me these past weeks at school. I appreciate all that you've done and everything you've taught me. Now I really wish I would've taken French so I can talk to you! The very last time I saw you...I said Goodbye to you in French :) I wish that Drew and especially Serena were old enough to understand how amazing you are. You're the prime of our family...literally! I really wish Julia was living her..because she's your youngest Grand-Daughter. I really enjoyed being your youngest Grand-Daughter...if only for a while =)

Grandpa, remember those times where you'd take our candy? It must've been the funniest thing! I remember I'd get disappointed but then I'd always laughed about it with my brother later on. It was those Strawberry "Rip Rolls". You were wearing that beige jacket...with those really big pockets. I remember the sounds of the plastic sounded so obvious, that you lying made it even funnier. Man, I won't EVER forget that. I also remember when Auntie Helen would make those nasty fruit shakes that we'd dislike so much...I agreed to dump it in the sink for you while she was outside cooking. Man, that was SO evil...but we sure did get giggles out of that! It was REALLY amazing how you played with Serena...if only for a while. I'll never delete that video and those pictures off my camera.

Lastly Gramps, please watch over the family. Especially my Mom. She's not really showing emotion...but what has happened in the past, she really needs you Grandpa. Though, I hope you do watch over all of us...especially Thomas ...he's so much more independent now. I remember you'd always get mad at him because he wouldn't listen to you! But thank you for never limiting my time with the TV =) You were the best babysitter ever...but you were definitely the worst liar ever! My love for you is higher than the sky. Take care..I will see you one day. Forever and ever, I love you!

RIP. August 1913-April 1, 2009


-Your youngest Grand-Daughter...in Sacramento ;]

Bye Bye - Mariah Carey

Palm Sunday.

We're coming so close to ending our Lenten season. This in fact, has been one of the most eye opening experiences. Needless to say, the Lord has my heart. In everything we do, may we put the Lord's name on High. It has been one of the most spiritual, meaningful ways that the Lord has let us know, that he LOVES us. Though, we may remind ourselves from time to time, the Lord God never forgets. He's there for us unconditionally, therefore our faith is lifted up to him unconditionally. It is apt unto us so we can lead the way. Palm Sunday is coming up, and I'm also altar serving...that means I won't be with my choir, visibly. I know that the Lord God knows what I'm going through, and he will yet, get me through whatever obstacles I may have. It has proven to me that he has the most devoting love, and as I pay it forward, I must let you know, the Lord Loves You!

Deeply In Love - Hillsongs